countrytime lemonade.

one time i had a thing of countrytime lemonade in my car for about 8 months. i just never took it out. we already had some in our cupboard at the hilson house. and so i figured i would just leave it there until we needed it. we never needed it. so one day i just brought it in. i think i left it in the hilson house cupboard for them to use after i moved.

i have a problem cleaning my car. i never want to do it. i dont think it smells. and i dont think i smell. but, i guess i could be wrong. my roommates thought i was smelly because i didnt wash my comforter. i didnt know people did that. sometimes i just dont know things.

there is a vw bus on the corner. im staring at it. i have been trying to distinguish between wants and needs for a few years. but i think i might need one. maybe after my sentra breaks down.

it's 76 degrees today in phoenix. on wed. it will be 84. that is crazy. i rode my bike on saturday. 30 miles. and made friends with the manager at the bike shop i go to. he is a regular at the restaraunt i work at. which is in the same parking lot. how convenient.

remember how i said i have a problem with not cleaning my car? i have that problem in a lot of areas. where i know i should do something, but then i dont do it. it's kinda like that with biking. i want to ride. everyday. but i dont know where to ride. or if i should really ride alone. so then sometimes i just go to the gym. i want to be strong to face those mountains and headwinds. i want to be strong in my life, too. to know things better. not just know parts of things. and not just halfway complete things. i want to do things well.

like when i serve. i want to know what im talking about. instead of when people ask, "what's Kaiware?" and then i say, "i have no idea; can i ask and come right back?" or when they ask how do the beers taste. or the sushi. and i say, "i have no idea". i want to have an idea. at least. and i want to ride my bike. and change tires. and fall off. and tru a wheel. and learn endurance. and i want to clean my car out. and wash my comforters. and not be smelly.

next time i have countrytime lemonade. im going to make it. and then have a lemonade stand. and invite all of you. and we can talk about bikes. and sushi. and beer. and then go for a ride.